Tired
Yet I'm tired with my thoughts
I'm tired of lifting the weight of my failure which I'm carrying since long
I'm tired of thinking that everything which is getting worse, is going to be okay soon
I'm tired of bearing all the hardships with a smile on my face
I'm tired of waiting for the good to happen to me
I'm tired of consoling myself that this exam of life will be last
And time will come when
I will laugh with my heart again, purely like happy child
I will be relieved at the lose of my life
I will feel blessed and lucky
But with the days passing I'm losing my hope, all of my energies are draining
I'm tired of thinking positive with every negative impression
I'm tired of taking care of my own self
I'm tired of explaining myself to others
All of my dreams are shattered
I'm chasing balloons that are going high in the sky
I always remain unblessed then how can I get something now?
Struggled day and night to achieve a good start, a good job, a happy life, a bleesed life, a family, a car, a vacation or anything else
My fate is just written to struggle day and night
But I'm tired of this
Only one thing which is holding me
Only one thing which is standing me up
Only one thing which gives me hope
Is my faith, my religion, and yes definitely my RAbb
RABB E KAREEM
I'm tired of losing everything and the only one Who holds me is
ٱلْسَّلَامُ The Perfection and Giver of Peace
ٱلْرَّزَّاقُ The Provider
ٱلْوَدُودُ The Most Loving
This gives me power and strength. When I remember these names of my Creator I wonder Who I can be disappointed?
These names hold me strongly and keep me standing in every storm of my life
My tiredness changes into peace
My drained power builts up again because
"Those who believe and whose hearts find comfort in the remembrance of Allah. Surely in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find comfort". (Quran 13-28)